Summer is Awesome!!

A few pictures of whats been going on this summer. Enjoying my children at home, and our little ray of sunshine (Max). We haven't done as much this summer because naturally it's a little harder with our little Max, but nonetheless, it's still a beautiful summer. Next week we go camping, trying out Oceano sand dunes. It seems like it's going to be a great getaway for us all. I've always wanted to camp right on the beach, and now my dream will come true. So excited! time with my family without any worries, okay, without any housework.....I guess that's what I was really trying to say.

Marriage isn't easy

Yes, I'm sure you've heard one too many a time, Marriage isn't easy. Well, they are right, it's not easy at all. Sometimes you think you've been married an eternity and the hard times are long gone. You feel like you've been through it all, but then life throws you a curve and your back at square one. Thank God for all the love in my heart that I can get past these hard times and go back to my happiness and my deep love for my husband. I think most of the disagreements stem from a difference in personalities, but I don't know that I would want to be with someone exactly like me, and then again there is only one ME. We are all made to shine in our own bright light and to share some of that light with others. We are all different and we are all alike, our common need is the need to be loved. The difference in us can be a beautiful thing; when you complement me and give me strength along the way, when you show me another side to what seemed so difficult to me, when you bring peace to my hectic day, when you hold me in your arms and make the rest of the world seem so far away. You are my true love, and that is what makes marriage not that hard at all.

Dream Career

My dream career would be to become an author, the best author there ever were. I'm so terribly inspired by life and the events I have lived through. I'm inspired by the people I love and admire, which are my husband and children. How can I admire my children? how can I not? I've been blessed to be in the presence of genius and that is nothing to take lightly, not only are they smart........they are sweet souls that dance around me and fill my heart with joy. I live in a fairytale and I am the queen. Okay now you see what I mean about being an author and writing books. Maybe I should start with a children's book since I see life in such a beautiful way, much like a child sees the world. I have come to love my life and be happy with it as it is, many around me find it weird........or too sweet, yes, sadly there are so many in this world that think life should not be so happy, they are people who have not been given the opportunity to love and be loved. I hope someday they will find the truest of loves and feel the happiness it can bring. It's about feeling a freedom like no other, of letting go of all judgement and feelings of self consciousness, I guess giving all of you is just that...... living without conscious or limit,of loving without keeping score. I guess I couldn't really be an author, I go from one thing to the other. I could write a jumbled book for jumbled people like me who like to talk about this and that, might even call it the book of Knick Knacks. Well, I suppose being an author could be lots of fun but also lots of work, getting all the spelling right (thank God for spell check), proper grammar and punctuation..........how about I just make Audio books? well after all it's my dream....

Sisters

I have four sisters, each one of them very dear to me and very special in their own way. We are all a little mirror of the many qualities instilled in us by our Mother. In particular I will speak of one of them today. My dear sister Anna. She came to San Diego for the 4th of July weekend, and we had a blast!! a blast from the past!! because every time we are together now, it's all about remembering the good Ole days. Remembering the good and the bad and at the end laughing our hearts out at how silly things were, now that we are (older) more mature. We open up our hearts to each other and release those hidden moments that were once so painful to us, we hold each other tight and know that love conquers all, and love forgives all. There is no bigger gift in life than having Family to love and share memories with. There is no other person in the world that has been there with you through childhood moments be them good or bad, only a sibling can relate to you and feel empathy for what youv'e been through. Siblings are the best thing in life, they were there with you in the best of times, what better time in life but childhood! when we were all free and full of hopes and dreams, most of all full of FUN. When I'm in the prescence of my siblings, I let lose, I'm happy, I'm in peace and I'm my best..........I'm a child again.

TRYING NOT TO JUDGE

I have learned through life and trough mistakes I've done in my life, that I shouldn't judge others because I have lots of defects myself. I've come to accept that life is more than going through it looking at what I don't like in others. I try hard to control my urge to talk bad about others, though sometimes it's way too hard and I do it, but believe me, I don't feel any better after I do it. So if it's something that brings no joy to me, why do it? why waste time on something that doesn't have any positive effect on anyone?. In that case, the judging is kept to a minimum and I work hard at not doing it at all if possible. I would like to come to a place in the road where I don't care about other peoples shortcomings, I just love and receive love, I keep my life simple yet happy. I've wasted so much time in my life, at different times in my life. I've thrown away my time and energy on people who really didn't deserve it, at times taking away from the people who most deserved it......my children. I guess maybe it wasn't wasted time, I've read that everything happens for a reason.......although sometimes we can't find the reason no matter how hard we look. But I have to trust that God put those people in my life for a reason, and that somehow I might have taken something positive from them, and in some small way they took something positive from me. I do feel I lost some precious time with my children because of these people, but that's okay, I won't be too hard on myself. I have always given my children an enormous amount of love, so I know they are all good in the love department. Hopefuly I'm a bit wiser now, and will put my children first, unless it's someone who really needs and deserves of my time.

Max is so cute!

Max is not only cute, he is a little piece of sunshine in our home. We are all so in love with him. He is changing enormously, he's now officially 4 months old, and it seems like only yesterday he was born. He is definitely bigger, and now he seems more alert and interested in the things going on around him. He is a blessing to our home and our lives. He is the cutest little fella. We love him so much that we end up missing him so on weekends. He's a joy.

Tuscan garden begins

Summer vacation is going great, after a week of the children being out of school, we are still sorting out our days. We are up and about by 10:00, which is when my little pollito is dropped off. He is so cute! I enjoy watching him like nothing else in the world. He gives me such joy, it's a great gift to be in the company of a little baby, more like a little piece of heaven. As for my kids, we are working on coming up with a list of possible jobs they can do around the house. They are always wanting this and that, so I've told them they could work for me and earn some money for their million wants. Today, Gilie and Andrew will be painting a wall outside my kitchen. It will be a sunny yellow wall. I'm excited about creating a Tuscan garden right outside my kitchen. I hope it turns out the way I envision it. But if it doesn't that's fine, you can't go wrong with paint, it's the easiest thing to fix if it doesn't look good. I will post a picture of it as soon as they are done with it, I'll show you the process of my Tuscan Garden. Weather wise, it's not hot yet! we are in the middle of some severe June gloom, and it's really looking gloomy :(

I can't wait for some warm days to arrive, so I can jump in my pool. Okay, off to work on that Tuscan garden.