Love of my life......

Trying to swallow a big bite of cupcake...

the power of something greater than you

I can't say I have experienced some divine miracle, I haven't had the need for a miracle; and for that I'm thankful to God.  That my life has been great so far, and I believe it will continue to be.  Why God has been so good to me, I do not know.  One part is God in my heart and in my life, the other part is making a choice in my heart to be happy.  I've read so many motivational books in my lifetime, too many to list.  And all great books, I couldn't say which has been the best or which has made the greatest difference in my life.  All I know is they have taught me a lot, on life and on being happy.  I know it all happens through God's grace, and the plan he has had for me all along.  I thank him daily for such a great life, and for the love he has placed in my life.  My husband, who is the greatest man ever.  A love so true, I could not have found in any other person.  Someone who loves and cares for me, like he would for himself.  Thank you God for this man.  and for all the good in my life  :)

First piece to be published online

I'm so incredibly excited about my piece being published!! I have been writing here and there, when I find time to sit and focus on typing up thoughts and lessons learned.  I've tried so many times before and I never had anyone say "I really liked what I read, I'm going to publish it".  Till now, and might I say that it's all in God's time.  The surprise came to me when I most needed it.  I was having a somewhat hard day, and then it came! that beautiful email, letting me know my piece will be published.  I'm very happy and I can't wait to see it actually on the website I turned it in to.  I'm happy as can be!!

Frustration

there are times when I just need to let it out.. a Vent session to be more specific.  I just find life so difficult sometimes.  I have stayed home with my children for the past 17 years, because to me personally it has been the most important thing in my life.  My decision to be a stay at home mom came as easy as breathing in and out.  I never gave it much thought, I knew I wanted to be the only one raising my children.  I knew exactly what I didn't want.  I didn't want kids with other people's values and morals.  If I had children it would be to raise them myself.  Okay and now flash forward to the here and now.  My children are grown, they are extraordinary human beings.  I love them dearly, they love me back.  They have the amazing quality of being good to myself and their father, they do as they are told, they are Free to be themselves.  Now the problem! my eldest daughter is about to graduate high school, and looking into Universities... and as it most commonly is with single income families, we make, well my husband does, but bless his precious heart ~ he has always been the sweetest person ever, he has never made me feel like it's his money.  He has always called it "our" money.  So anyways, he makes a good amount of money, yet we are strapped financially just because of the high cost of living.  So given that information... my problem, our problem is that education is crazy expensive and we can't afford to pay for our children s higher learning.   It's so darn frustrating, to have given so much of myself to my children, have outstanding students.. they are all ... Yes.. all three of my children are straight A students.  And we don't have the money to send them to college.  Oh boy!! I guess you can't have it all in life.  WEll, my kids will have to take out loans and finance their education, because even with all this grief.. I wouldn't trade my being home with them for anything in the world.  I'm proud of my children and I feel responsible for the amazing persons they have become.  Raising them was easy because it was done with LOVE.

2011

In 2011 I intend to  attract more peace into my life.  Having come to such a beautiful stage in my life where I worry less and love more.  What a blessing to get to this place of peace.  Why did I end up here? I don't know, maybe I've come back to what I was meant to be all along.  A child of God, filled with his love and compassion.  I just intend to "BE", to stay still in the midst of whatever is going on in life.. just BE and let God be.  I trust completely in life and all it's goodness.  I'm not leaving this space of peace..

Christmas 2010

It is a day before Christmas eve.  Yes, we celebrate Christmas Eve, like all Hispanic families.  I don't exactly find Christmas as exciting as it was when I was a young little girl, or a teenager.  Now I find more of a nostalgic side to it.  I tend to start thinking of how Christmas was for me before, before I grew up and had kids of my own.  When I was a kid myself.  When my parents would do the best they could to make it a happy time for us Seven kids in the house.  In the midst of our poverty, it seems it never had anything to do with presents.. the only gift I remember clearly is some perfumed talcum powder my mom wrapped for me.  As simple as it was I know it came with all of my mothers love.  My mother's love is the best gift I ever received.. and a gift I treasure and still look back on.  I love Christmas because of the love that is felt.. among my family, among friends.  I will try to make it yet another great Christmas for my children.. and thank God for all the blessings this year has brought to our family.

This is my Family

I enjoy the blessing of my children.   

I am not afraid to let it be known how very much I love my children.

I will always let everyone know my children come first.

My husband is my biggest treasure.... my companion... my best friend.