Confused

Lately I've been experiencing an array of thoughts and an extreme sense of confusion.  Nothing to worry about, I still live a happy life day by day.  Not even confusion could change that.  I'm just at a crossroad in life, do I get a job? do I really stop being a full time mom now?, those are the questions, and in my heart there is no right answer.  We definitely need the extra money, needless to go into the same old worn out story of how expensive children are, let's just say we are using more and more of our money and there isn't enough coming in to keep living the same way.  For now all I can do is sit still as I am, and keep being a full time mom to my kids.  Being home at all times, keeping a mindful eye on them.  One is entering college and maybe that is what gives me a sigh of relief, but then again I still have two that need me just as much as my college one did at their age.  Okay, the answer might just be, to wait the summer out.  Then, once the boys are back in school.. look for a part time job to do while they are at school.  Another thing that's been lurking around in my head, is that of going back to school.  I really want to go into the medical field in some way.  Were I a bit younger, I would start a nursing program.  But, I'm feeling out of time.  Never the less... Happy with my life as is :)